Sunday, April 11, 2010

ONE MONTH 2 GO!!!

Hey guys...
Man its been a while since i wrote on my blog!!! :-( I'm slacking I know... But the good news is I have survived NYC!! Well so far... I have learned so much (not in design but within myself) in who I want to be and where I want to work towards when I finish here. I have officially stepped out of my comfort zone! I dont think this internship was to help me learn design and to enhance my design skills (because I havent gotten a chance to show them) but I think my purpose here was to clarify why I shouldnt be intimidated. Not to toot my own horn or say that Im better than someone, but I have seen behind the scenes and I am most certain that I can do a great job if not a little better than some people in the industry... if not, then I am open to learn.

Everyone has their side hustle in NYC...whether they work at a museum, but paint on the side, or work at a Souvenir shop but DJ at night. Their determination and willingness to do what it takes to make it surprises me in a good way. I was in Central Park the other day and I was walking through 'the mall' and there was a girl sitting on the bench with her guitar singing. And her voice gave me chills which rarely happens. Sometimes I wish I was in that position to make her dreams come true as an artist or knew someone legit who could take her that next step in her career. I think that's what separates me from some people in the industry...its simple... I want to help others. Everyone is out for themselves these days. No one is willing to be that person that believes in you to give you a chance to 'per say' work with a designer or give you that chance to show your skills or help you be something you've always dreamed because they are afraid you'll succeed more than they will. I have experienced it first hand and let me tell you, it isn't a good feeling being overlooked. Even when you speak up and take that chance not caring what the other people think or perceive you as, you take that chance and speak up for yourself... It seems like the people that have that ability to be my mentor or help me take that next step don't want to risk their job. Which I don't understand because that would mean you aren't secure in your craft/ skills...

Ive always been the type to want to help others or be that person that helps to make someone's dreams come true because from being in NYC and I've learned first hand what its like to be overlooked and underestimated. You never know what someone can do unless you give them a chance. You never know why this person came into your life or what lengths they can help you succeed in, without giving them a try. Only with God's help am I going to survive this and prosper. Even if I don't gain a job from this experience, I've met some of the best and worst people in my life and have learned and added the experience to my Life's resume. And with that being said... 4 more weeks to go and counting...